This really isn't for anyone but myself. Sometimes writing in a diary becomes boring and I can hear my thoughts whizz by my as I am too slow to get them down on paper. This seems to remedy that issue, as I am a quicker typer than writer.
So where do I start? Everyone knows break ups are hard. Well they aren't usually for me. In fact, I have an amazing ability to get myself through the withdrawal of a loved one and move on to another happiness that may or may not include someone new. Not this time.
It's been two awful months, if this was anyone else I would be occupied with some new fantastic adventure, but here I am sitting on my couch neurotically turning over in my mind all the wonderful new women he could be meeting, which seems like the end of the world for me. I stop myself every five minutes to remind myself that this really isn't worth my time. It wasn't the longest relationship, maybe the longest crush in a while, but nonetheless it wasn't meant to be. Really, when it comes down to it, this guy was probably the worst match for me. I could sit here and discuss how much his laugh annoyed me (it was almost not even real), or how I would have had to accept the fact that I could never buy high heels as long as I was with him, but for some reason that doesn't register with my mind (or heart, or wherever neuroticism derives from). I needed a solution, and fast.
I heard about a person who wrote down 1,000 awesome things and today he his happy, healthy, and a hell of a lot less neurotic that I am. So here is grasping at what I hope is the final straw.
Day ONE:
Today, I am grateful for Chocolate. Yes chocolate. Purdy's chocolate, Cadbury's, Hershey's Chocolate chips, Oreo's, Fudgeo's, chocolate bark, white chocolate, mint chocolate, really anything that is chocolate containing chocolate! If it wasn't for chocolate I wouldn't be a smiling mess.
I mean really we are just getting out of Easter! I have a major stash that hasn't been polished off yet and I am amazed at the constraint I am showing. Chocolate helps people through break ups, that in itself makes chocolate highly used therapy tool. Even though in the end the patient will likely end up fat and slightly unhappy with their figure, they will get there very happily!
So here's to hot chocolate and your cousins. Because if they weren't there, what would give us a sugar rush and a smiling face? A simple smile, a simple start, here's to tomorrow and chucking straws.